pissed off

OMG!! i'M SO MAD RIGHT NOW! EVERYTHING IS GOING TO SHIT! I feel like screaming! I'm just mad at everything and everyone right now. AHHHHHHHHHHHH
I feel so hopeless..i'm so unhappy...i just feel like breaking down.
Fuck Erik for making me miss him!
Fuck heather for getting mad at me for no fucking reason!
Fuck rachel for not helping me!
Fuck Jason for making me feel like crap 24/7
Fuck Rosie for being jealous!
Fuck morgan for making me feel like an awful sister!
Fuck myself for letting it all get to me!

Do you remember the 21st night of september.....you all know the song ( i hope).

anywho its been a while since i've written. I've just been really busy.
Since then:
I've broken up with my boyfriend (tears) but luckily we decided to stay friends, i hope that turns out well.
My friend broke up with my other friend (more tears)
Today my sister and her boyfriend broke up ( tear fest)

so this month is the month of breakups. and a lot of tears.

I'll write again soon goodnight to all

Today was my first day of Senior year. I was surprisingly excited the night before, when usually i think of school with dread. I had a good day, however it got pretty redundant as i stumbled from class to class getting the same lecture about rules and grading. But all in all I like my classes and it was a pretty decent day.

sorry i haven't posted in a while, but since school is starting in 2 days, I've been running around trying to see as many of my friends as i can.

Since i last posted I have:

1. Went to Warped Tour where some of my favorite bands played: Say Anything, Motion City Soundtrack, Rise Against, Ludo....
2. Saw I Am Ghost (a band)
3. Saw Pineapple Express
   
4. Slept over my friend's house tuns and tuns of times
5. Went to the beach
6. And more stuff that i can't recall right now

Anyway I had a great summer and I'm sorry to say goodbye to it...but now I'm a Senior !!Whoot!

I've been at my friends house since Tuesday..and I just got home today..lol

Tomorrow is my favorite cousin's engagement party. I'm going to be one of her bridesmaids!! Yay

also Monday I'm going to get my warped tour ticket XD

Okay so two exciting things:

1. I just got home!!! yay!
2. I finished Breaking Dawn! It was amazing! Better than the second and third!!!and that is saying a lot. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH
   

I'm in Jersey right now...and only just got internet...which is my explanation for my lack of posts. I'm on vacation with my family: my mother, sisters, niece, nephew, and brother in law were all in New York for two weeks. My niece is the cutest thing alive, she's two years old. I'll post some pics of her later XD... anyway for those who care, sorry i haven't been posting lately.

BREAKING DAWN CAME OUT TODAY!! I'm going to run to Barnes and Noble to get it XD!!!!

I just got back from Mammoth and Yosemite with some friends and their and my family. Anywho it was really fun, we climbed to a waterfall, we swam in rivers, we hiked, and when we weren't outdoors we were reading our little hearts out. Now I'm exhausted and am looking forward to a good long sleep. However i doubt I'll get it because tomorrow I'm heading to the beach with some friends. Busy Busy Busy thats what my summer has been so far.

I'm a little bummed because when i got home my AP History scores had come in and I got a three out of five..it's passing but I was hoping that I would get at least a four.. :( *sigh* oh well there's nothing I can do about it.

I'm reading a new series : Guilty Pleasures, The Laughing Corpse, Circus of the Damned, The Lunatic Cafe, Bloody Bones, The Killing Dance, Burnt Offerings, Blue Moon, Obsidian Butterfly, Narcissus in Chains, Cerulean Sins, Incubus Dreams
I know it's a long series but they're really good. I'm on Bloody Bones right now...I'll tell you if the series ends well.

I just got back from San Francisco with my friends! It was a lot of fun, except that we got lost for two hours in San Fran!There is no way to navigate around there without getting lost! Streets change name, the freeway turns into streets!! Also there is porn everywhere! hahahaha

Anywho, I'm too tired to explain the rest of the trip, but now I'm home and exhausted.

p.s I READ THE HOST BY STEPHENIE MEYER!!! IT WAS SOOOOO GOOD!!!AHHHHHH

Ok so to prove that i was exhausted and am recuperating from school, I slept from about 11:30 pm to 2:40pm! 15 hours baby! yeah i was tired XD

Anyway I didn't do anything today, except i just cleaned my room and i think thats an amazing accomplishment on my part.

anywho i might go to the beach tomorrow...let summer vacation begin!hahaha

oh and i'm going to start reading The Host by Stephenie Meyer...I'm excited!

WOW! its been a very very long time. I've missed you all! okay so 2 more days of finals and i am finished! YES! I am literally jumping for joy (lol). okay so how has everyone been! fill me in on everything new with you!

HAPPINESS

Life has been peachy, so much so that I'm just waiting for something bad to happen to make my fragile world come crashing down on me in a billion little colorful shards. I'll be cut and I won't be able to do anything about it. Soon though I will be able to recreate my life, hopefully making it a little sturdier, something that will be able to withstand the next natural disaster. Until then, I will continue to be happy, going over the small bumps in the road with ease.

Life is good right now if i haven't made it clear enough. Some things have created my happy bubble and here they are:

1. One of my best friends, Dom, who I consider a brother, is coming home to California tomorrow. See last summer he moved to New Jersey, and he has been miserable there, and my friends and i have desperately missed him. BUT HE WILL BE HERE TOMORROW!!!
2. I'm in a relationship right now with a guy named Erik, and he has been making me so happy. :)
   
3. My best friend, Rachel, last year and earlier this year was in a depressed faze that a lot of the time made me feel awfully sad myself. However she now has a boyfriend named Rick that , although is sometimes really moody, makes her happy. When she is happy I am also happy, it's like a domino effect.
4. School is almost over! Due to the fact that both my AP test are over I do nothing in both those classes but watch movies and play cards. My brain is in summer mode and I have been doing very little work for school and I am perfectly content with that.

I AM HAPPY! NOW ALL I CAN DO IS HOPE THAT NO ONE THROWS A ROCK AT MY FRAGILE WORLD.

APHISTORY OVER/BOY!!

I AM FINISHED! I will never open another history book again! Even though I think I failed, I'm ecstatic that it is over. Now I'll have time to blog to my hearts content.

Ok so on Monday that guy i like told me he likes me !! yay! It was really cute too!

we had been playing that stupid 21 question game but we had only gotten through two questions. His second question to me was "who do you like". Anyway I said I wouldn't tell him and asked him who he liked and he wouldn't tell me. We dropped massively obvious hints to each other.
Anywho, I told him that he had to tell me the next day and he promised that he would.
So after school the next day we were sitting next to each other, and I asked him "so are you going to tell me?"and he said "do you really want to know?", and of course I said yes. so he held me in his arms and whispered "I'm holding her".
ISN'T THAT CUTE! Do not tell me it's corny because I do not want my happily oblivious bubble to be popped.

My life has been consistent of eating, sleeping, going to school, and history, and nothing else.. i can't wait until the AP US history test is over..i will finally be able to breath .

This week has been pretty hectic..i haven't had much time to do anything. I have an AP history test coming up that I haven't studied for yet..well not enough at least.Anyway, once the test is over i'll finally be able to relax. Okay so I went to see Baby Mama today, and i liked it a lot..hahahaha. Hmmm what else happened. Well I could talk about my somewhat confusing relationship i have with this guy at school. We act like we're a couple, everyone thinks we're a couple, i've finally realized that i do like him, and now i'm just waiting and hoping that he likes me back. If it happens then there will be quite a lot of couples in my group. My sister has a boyfriend, so does my best friend, and so does my other friend. (singing song) love is in the air every time i look around!hahaha

I went bowling yesterday after going to a baby's first birthday! it was really fun..and i won!!anyway nothing else to report.

Ok so I just finished this book called "You Know Where to Find Me". I t was a quick read (I started it this morning), but I liked it very much. It is by Rachel Cohn, who helped write Nick and Norah's infinite playlist, which was a great book.

All I can say is that if you want to kill yourself ( which I highly suggest you don't, and implore you not to) and nothing will change your mind, not therapy not anti depressants not family and friends, than DO NOT TAKE PILLS TO KILL YOURSELF! This book has taught me that taking pills is not a peaceful way out. In almost all cases of overdoses, the person does not die from the drug itself. Their body tries to get rid of the poison by making you throw up, but because the drugs have rendered you numb and pretty much unmoving, you choke on your vomit, which gets into your lungs and you die a painful and gruesome death.

Now that I am on the subject of suicide, I have to give you my opinion (bare with me I might go off on a tangent here). Some people might argue that if the person is going through that much pain and suffering that they shouldn't have to live anymore, and although I see their point and will sometimes agree with it depending on the day, right now I disagree. I do not have personal experience but I know people who have had their friend or family member kill themselves, and it is extremely selfish. Once you are gone, the people you left behind, everyone you have ever touched, are in turmoil. They will blame themselves for not stopping you, maybe they might blame themselves for your pain, even if it was not their fault. Not just that but they will miss you more than is imaginable. It is not fare to put others, your loves ones through that much pain.

tell me what you think

Last Night I slept over my friends house, and even though we were supposed to be sleeping, we ended up talking far into the night. We talked about everything. It feels good to be able to spill your soul once and a while. When was the last time you told someone your secrets and regrets? Are you one of those people that don't trust others enough to tell them your story?

Today I was talking to my friend about random stuff, and one thing led to another and we began speaking of the human race.

Sometimes I'll just be going through my day and something will strike me like:

• We polute the world
• we polute our bodies with drugs, alcohol, and cigarettes
• we cut down forests
• we waste paper without a thought; napkins, writing paper, etc.
• we use up our water without caring that some people in the world can't even have clean water to drink
• we slaughter animals, thinking we are the superior race
• we slaughter eachother
• we cover the earth with cement
• and yet we complain about smog and are shocked that we are experiencing global warming
• we think we can do terrible things to the earth and there will be no consequences

My friend said that we are like a virus that spreads and kills everything in our path. He was right

I know there's good in the world, but i all i can see right now is the bad

hmm what happened this week?

Ok so i went to school...boring ( yeah that was pretty much my week)

except today; my friend and I went to see prom night...it was fun because the theatre was packed with mostly teens who were screaming and yelling random things : )
there was this one part of the movie where its dark and the main character backs into a lamp and screams (and the whole theatre screamed as well) :) anyway fun times

YAY IT'S THE WEEKEND!

hahaha

ok so i didn't win against procrastination. I got half way through my essay and then it was really late and I couldn't stay awake to finish it....so...i didn't go to school today :)
lame I know...but I'd rather be lame than get an incomplete in an AP class.

DBQ

I am struggling with a DBQ (document based question) right now. I hope none of you have had to endure them, i wouldn't wish them on my enemy.

lets hope i win against procrastination

Sleep=Happiness/twilight movie/shutter

Today I woke up at 1:30 pm :) If you haven't noticed I love to sleep! I plan to be very lazy today.

Anyway my friend has been sending me millions of pictures of stuff from the new Twilight movie, so I'm going to show you some of them.

go to these links: http://shocktillyoudrop.com/news/topnews.php?id=5429
http://amhphotography.typepad.com/photos/kalama/edward383.html


so I love scary movies, and my friend and I try to see any and every scary movie we can. Anyway last night at 9:40 we saw shutter. It was not good. Don't see it, the ending was so retarded.
Throughout the movie the main character was complaining of a pain in his neck. At the end of the movie we find out that the reason for the pain was that the ghost chick was sitting on his shoulders! Stupid right? The last scene was of him in an insane asylum (because he had tried to electrocute himself), and he's slouched on the bed and the ghost girl is draped over his back. Ummm weird.

CITY OF ASHES

So I bought City of Ashes tuesday and finished it wednesday. It was so good! There's going to be another one! yay! I've got to do homework..ewww

Rat!

So I was thoughtfully gifted with a rat in my room this morning. Want to know who gave this gift? My loving cats hahaha. Anyway today I went to my Grandparents, got glared at by my mom, and memorized all 42 presidents for my class tomorrow. I think that could be marked an accomplished day.

oh and on the side I'm still reading vampire hunter d volume 3

where is my home?

I just got home, and this is the first time I've been home since Wednesday :). Wednesday night I slept over my friend Rachel's house, Thursday and Friday night I slept over my friend Rosie's house. Anyway it's been a fun but long couple of days. I am exhausted, but there is no time to rest because a daunting task lies before me, cleaning my room. It might not sound too hard, but if you saw my room right now, you would understand that it is more challenging than you might think. hahaha. oh well, I guess i have no one to blame but myself, I mean it didn't get like this magically. :) WISH ME LUCK!

Stand Back!

Stand back because I am on a non stop rampage! Yesterday I bought, started, and finished Vampire Hunter D Volume 2, and today i bought volume 3 and 4. I am determined to read all of them. The first and second were soooo goood !!!Anyway I'm at my friends house haning out and today was a very good day, running through sprinklers included! It was fantastic, and I hope tomorrow can be just as good!

sprig break/more books!

Ok so the reason i haven't been posting lately is because i was in mammoth and unfortunately have no internet there. So my family has a small condo up in mammoth, which is where we usually are for ANY vacations, no matter how small. In the winter and early spring theres snow and since i was 4 I've been skiing. Three or four years ago I attempted snow boarding, but after trying for a couple years, and failing, i gave up and am now back to skiing. I love it, it's so much fun just to speed down the mountain!

The trip to mammoth takes 5 hours from where i live and so i have a lot of spare time in the car. Anyway due to my (thank god) lack of car sickness I can read to my hearts content. On the way there i started and finished Max Ride 4, which was not really that good. Oh and if anyone can answer something for me i would be forever great full: Is this the last one? Because at the end it made it seem like there was going to be at least one more, but i'm not sure because i thought this was the last?

On the trip back from mammoth which happened to be today I started and finished another book called Vampire Slayer D. It was great! I loved it a lot! If you like the books I like than you will probably agree with me on this one. The thins though the one i read was only volume 1 and i believe theres at least 10 volumes or more. But that does not deter me because hopefully there all as good as the first. anyway i'm willing to give all of them the chance!

I think you guys should read them!!!

I GOT THEM **EXCITED SQUEAL OF JOY**

I got the second book of "Star of the Morning" which is called "the Mage's Daughter". I also got, drum role, THE FOURTH BOOK OF MAXIMUM RIDE!!!!! but i think I'm going to start the mage's daughter first since i just finished star of the morning and it's still in my mind. Anyway I am soooooo excited...and might just skip homework to read(and watch Kyle XY ). YAY!

Star of the Morning

Ok so i literally just finished it, and I have to admit that I loved it. The next one is already out and I'm probably going to run to Barnes and Noble to get it tomorrow.....well after getting maximum ride that is :)

If your interested It is categorized as Fantasy Romance. The heroin's name is Morgan (which happens to be my twin sister's name).

NEW BOOK!

So I think I'm going to start this new book I just bought called "Star of the Morning". I'll keep you updated and tell you what I think of it.

Manga/GodSpell

Along with the many books i read, I also read Manga. They're a quick read and very creative.
I've read:

• Red River-my favorite. It's about a girl that is pulled into the past by a sorceress. She is meant to be a sacrifice. In the end She falls in love with the prince of that time and must either choose him in the past or her old life in the present.
  
• Mars-More love. it's very good and a finished series!
• Kodocha Sana’s Stage-This one is very cute and entertaining
  
• Yu Yu Hokusho-This one is great adventure that keeps you scrambling for the next one.
  
• Bleach-Another adventure, although it is not as good in my opinion as Yu Yu
  
• Mars- A good love story. It is great and it's a finished series so there is no wait.
  
• Ray-This started out really good, except it was incomplete. It never was finished :(
  
• Vampire Knight- This one was great and it is about vamps!!!
  
• Chibi Vampire-more vampire, but this one is completely different than Vampire Knight
  
• Fruits Basket-Oh I really love this one. It's about the members of the zodiac, and a girl who stumbles into their secret.
  
• Angel Sanctuary- This one catches your attention in the beginning, but i got bored very fast. Unless you have a lot of patience, don't bother with it.
  
• Model- This one again was pretty good in the beginning but i hated the ending to it!
  
• Cain Saga- I just started this series, but i'm a little bored :(
  
• Godchild-Eh not that great, pretty boring. DON"T READ IT!

A little about my day- It started out fine, like any other school day. I struggled through it, tired and wanting to leave. I took an A.P Chem test which (thank god) i actually understood (that was a first). Everyone was excited to see our school play, GodSpell, after school.
But before I tell you how the play was i have to tell you that my friends and I had been in both plays last year and the first play of this year. We hadn't joined this play because 1. It was a MUSICAL and not one of us could sing, and 2. the new director, who had directed the first play of the year, completely ignored our pleading that we not do a musical. She lost all of us in her musical and lost our respect. We were (I'm a little ashamed to say) very pleased as she struggled for people to join.
Back to today. We were all hoping that it wouldn't be as good as our past plays. The play was good however but completely different from anything we had ever done. While our plays had been dark and creepy, theres was happy and upbeat. However, I must say that although most of the singing was really good, there was very little acting, while our plays had been only acting. Therefore there is no real way for me to compare and therefore no way for me to determine whether or not there's was better than ours. I'M SO HAPPY IT'S FRIDAY
Thank you for reading

First Post

This isn't my first blog, but the first one was bust because i got bored with it and I'm guessing so did the ppl reading it because it was mostly about me and what i had done day to day. Let me tell you, if your not some person who does amazing things everyday, nobody wants to read about you for very long. Therefore, to make this a little more interesting I'm going to write about new books I'm reading and whether or not it's worth picking up. If your not interested in reading, this blog is not for you. I must admit that i might occasionally write about myself if I'm dying to put into words what my day was like. Anyway to start us off I'm going to list my top favorite books:(keep in mind these are only my favorites )

1. Twilight-all time favorite. It is a love/adventure story about a girl named Bella who falls in love with, drum role, a vampire, named Edward. Not just any vamp, he is the most gorgeous and mysterious creature in the planet! Anyway that's what I think about him. This is a must read.
2. New Moon-sequel of Twilight. Although it is not as good as Twilight, it still very good.
3. Eclipse-Third but not last of the Twilight Series, still very good.
4. Great and Terrible Beauty-(if i commented on every one we'd be here forever)
5. Rebel Angels-(second of great and terrible beauty)
6. The Sweet Far Thing-(third and final of Great and Terrible Beauty)
7. Lovely Bones
8. Blue is for Nightmares
9. White is for Magic
10. Red is for Remembrance
11. Silver is for Secrets(yes these four are a series, but this is the last one)
12. Maximum Ride (all three(and one more coming the 17th of this month))
13. What Happened to Lani Garver
14. The Harry Potter Series
15. The Naming
16. The Riddle
    
17. The Crow(yes these three are another series-but this not the last on)
18. Green Rider series ( if you haven't noticed, I'm a BIG fan of series)
19. Invisible Monsters(strange but oh so good)
20. Angels and Demons
21. Abarat (both of them)
22. City of Bones ( the next one "City of Ashes" is coming out soon...I don't remember when though, but I'll keep you updated)
23. Dreadful Sorry-wow this book was amazing
24. Blood and Chocolate
25. Tithe
26. Valient
27. Kiss of Death

These are only the ones i have on my shelves though, i have read countless others that i borrowed from my friends and if i remember i will tell you them.

OH AND DON"T BE SHY, IF YOU HAVE ANY BOOK SUGGESTIONS, TELL ME, I AM ALWAYS LOOKING FOR MORE BOOKS TO READ.